The Rest of The Story

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This a continuation from my last blog and to get you up to speed on what is happening now.


Once I lost that weight I went off of Nutrisystem. I did not try to stay on any kind of diet. I just stopped doing everything. I was so tired of dieting, working out and having to watch every single thing I did. This was bad. Over the next few years I put the weight back on a little at a time. I would go on another diet then off the diet and I would always gain back what I lost and just a little more. I got married, had a baby and still kept gaining. Diet, gain, diet, gain. It was terrible. I tried anything and everything. I never did try Nutrisystem again. I took pills that were supposed to help your metabolism but in the end they all did the opposite. I could not loose weight with out them. I finally gave up. I could not take the yo yo diet anymore. I told myself I was just meant to be this way.


I went on with my life and for years I did not diet. I got so big I could not stand to look at myself. I did not want to go out with friends or be around family, where you always felt people were judging you. I started chatting on line and met some very nice people. I never told them I was fat. I figured they wouldn't want to talk to me. I had such low self esteem, yet I still had no desire to loose the weight.


Then it happened. I woke up one day and looked at myself in the mirror. I hated what I saw. I decided that this was it I had to do something. I did not want to be like this. This was my last chance. I started watching what I ate on my own. I cut out the sugar and just ate good meals. I knew how to eat right, after all I had been dieting my whole life. After 2 weeks I had lost 15 lbs. I knew if I did not join some kind of weight loss group or get help I would never stay on it by myself. The third week was always the week I gave up. I went on line and signed up for the one and only program that had ever worked for me. I joined Nutrisystem. I also started doing some deep soul searching.


I found that my whole life I had been trying to please other people, taking care of other people. I never thought about myself or what I needed. Now was the time. It was time for me to think about myself and what I needed in life. I waited far to long to do this and I hope by me writing this blog others will not wait so long. To date I have lost 64lbs. I am still on my journey and I am going to take you with me. I will be changing my life and I hope to bring you along for the ride. See you tomorrow and have a great day!

Great Workout at Your Desk

The Bulb Lights Up!

I finally decided what to blog about and I am excited and a little scared.  This blog is going to be very personal.  I am hoping that it will help others out there that have had similar problems.  I am in my 40's and very over weight.  I tried forever to loose the weight, going from one program to another.  It has taken me this long to realize that the only way to take it off and keep it of is a total life style change.  I know you have heard this before and it really is true.  I am going to bring you on my journey with me as I do some very hard soul searching and loose the weight.  I have already started on my journey so I will have to back up a little to the beginning.  You are going to be with me as I have success and even if I have failures.  I will also try out different weight loss products and review them for you.

Where do I begin?  Childhood of course!  I come from a family with 6 children.  I am number 5.  My father was in the military and my mother was a stay at home mom.  It was very hard on my mother raising 6 kids and she would escape to her friends houses as much as she could.  She was under a lot of stress and every once in a while took it out on us.  They did disciple the way parents did back in those days.  Beatings with the belt, spankings.  I always tried to be good and stay in the background so I would not get in trouble.  My little sister on the other hand was very outspoken and provoked anyone she could.  It was crazy growing up in our house but I am sure we had a family just like many others.

I started gaining weight when I was 8.  I remember because that is when we moved back to the states from Germany. In Germany we had no TV.  I remember getting one once but all we could get were German speaking channels and we did not know much German.  There wasn't much to do inside.  We were outside playing all the time; therefore I did not gain any weight.  I could eat, go to the little candy shop and never gain anything.  I was a skinny little thing.  When we moved to the states, we moved to Florida.  It was so hot that we rarely wanted to play outside and TV oh my gosh.  I had never watched TV before and this thing that I was looking at, watching Captain Kangaroo.  WOW! 

Now I still did get some exercise my mother kicked us outside as much as possible.  I got a little chubby but not fat.  My mother was worried about me and I wanted to loose weight.  I did not want to be the fat kid in school.  I saw how the girls that were fat were treated and I did not want to be treated that way.  My mother put me on a diet.  I was 10 years old when I started yo yo dieting.  When I got to high school I was still chubby but not fat.  By the time I got out of high school and started working I was fat. I had to do something about this.  I was going out with friends.  I went out with a few guys.  I met my husband at 22 and we were having a great time.  I didn't have a problem dating because even though I was over weight I was still cute.  I still needed to do something about it though. 

I went on Nutrisystem.  This diet was awesome.  I lost 70lbs.  I am going to stop here for the day.  I will post more tomorrow and bring you up to date.

Anything Goes: My First Attempt

Anything Goes: My First Attempt: "This is my first attempt at blogging. I never thought about doing this until I ran across this site. I am not a writer and in fact my writ..."

My First Attempt

This is my first attempt at blogging.  I never thought about doing this until I ran across this site.  I am not a writer and in fact my writing skills in school were terrible, so be patient with me please.  I decided to call my blog Anything Goes because I could not figure out what to write about.  I have so many interests that I could not pin it down to one thing.  As I go along and learn more about blogging Im' sure I will be able to pin it down to one thing. 
One of my favorite things is books.  I love books and love to read.  I love going into a book store, the smell of new books just makes me feel at home.  I play on second life a bit.  I am not much into going to the clubs on there or any of that.  I mostly spend my time talking to people I have met in chat, on skype. 
I live with my husband and son.  My son will be 18 this Sunday, July 17th.  So you may see me writing about them or the people I chat with once in a while. 
Welcome to everyone who reads this and wish me luck!